I'll start off by saying that I like my sleep... and could sleep through anything. Recently I've started to question this. Has sleeping all the time led to switching and another part of me taking over and they've got up and done what they wanted and got back into bed? With this excessive sleeping, when I actually do wake up I don't feel refreshed, I just feel more tired. Could sleeping too much be a sign of chronic fatigue syndrome... I don't believe this is the case for me.
A few years ago I had a nervous breakdown and was admitted into my local hospital in the mental health unit and upto a year and a half following this, I was re-admitted on several occassions . And now I am unable to work because of my mental health problems. After my breakdown I have spent the majority of my time sleeping day and night, which isn't good for me, i know.
I have complained to my pysch, community psych nurse (cpn) and my doctor. My psyc and my cpn have made notes about this but nothing has being suggested for me. My doctor gave me some beta blockers for anxiety and this has worked to calm me down. Even though I suffer from depression I feel that depression wouldn't have me sleeping excessively! would it?
Another thing that I've noticed is that at times when a part's have told me something that I wasn't aware of.... this leads to literally feeling as though everything in my environment slows down and I feel my physical frame/my body falling.... This happens to me regulary throughout the day and evenings. I fall and lay there, then go away somewhere in my head and when I come back, I can only move my eyes but the rest of my body is paralysed and I can stay like this for upto 10-15 minutes.
This happened when I was at home alone with my seven year old son. I felt myself going and I called out to him to ring is daddy at work and tell him that mummy can't move her body. I knew that my husband would know what to do. The next thing I know is that I'm layed out in an ambulance with a woman trying to get me to talk. I try to speak but nothing happens, very scary.
Once I'm at the hospital and after several hours more or less the entire day and evening is spent there, with my husband and son by my side. Every so often I'd get prodded and tested and all the while waiting to be seen by a consultant. I am finally released home and told that they would contact my doctor and I would get an outpatient appointment to get a ct/cat scan.
I have being doing my own research about falling and other symptoms that I've been experiencing and it sounds like I could be experiencing something called dissociatiive seizures. I'm planning to discuss this with everyone again to see if I could be any closer to finding out what this it! I'm fed up and I just want to know what I've got, because maybe I could help myself some way! At the moment I feel like I'm not being believed by the professionals and maybe they believe I'm a making it sound worse than it is or something. Its not like I've had these seizures if they are that out of the blue, here and there.... This has being an ongoing thing over several months now. I am actually scared of leaving my house because it might happen again when i'm out and about shopping....
I do believe and feel that my excessive sleeping and possible dissociative seizures could be linked in a way...
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